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We can’t remember her name, but we remember where
we buried her. In a blanket the color of a sky that refuses birds.

The illiterate owls interrogate us from the trees, and we answer,
We don’t know. Maybe we named her Dolores, for our grandmother,

meaning sadness, meaning the mild kisses of a priest.
Maybe we called her Ruth, after the missionary who gave us

a rifle and counterfeit wine. We blindfolded our sister and tied
her hands because she groped the fence looking for the rabid fox

we nailed to a post. Katydids sang with insistent summer urge
and the cavalier moon grew more slender. In the coyote hour,

we offered benedictions for a child we may have named Aja,
meaning unborn, meaning the stillness that entered us,

which is the stillness inside the burnt piano, which is also
the woman we untie, who is the mother of stillness.”

This poem is an elegy by Traci Brimhall.

The poem “Stillborn Elegy” by Traci Brimhall is one of the most powerful poems I have ever read. It starts off so strongly:

We can’t remember her name, but we remember where
we buried her. In a blanket the color of a sky that refuses birds.”
The very first sentence draws you into a sadness only a parent of a dead child could feel. From the first sentence, you are immediately invested in the poem. This poem couldn’t have been an easy one to write and Traci really bore her soul into it.
Throughout the poem, Traci mentions names they might have given to their daughter.
Maybe we named her Dolores, for our grandmother”
Maybe we called her Ruth, after the missionary who gave us
a rifle and counterfeit wine”
a child we may have named Aja”
It was interesting to me that she does not remember the name she gave her daughter and she gives a reason for each of the potential names. The way she ties the potential names together with the rest of the poem helps it flow in an almost lyrical way. The names start off nice and meaningful and then the last name she gives is Aja meaning unborn. She took a more dark turn at the end comparing the meaning of the name to the stillness she felt inside herself when she lost her baby. This intense poem really touched me by her bravery for coming out with this intimate poem about such a terrible time of her life.

One Response to “In a Blanket the Color of the Sky”

  1. A beautiful post, Bryanna.

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